My take on American Idol...

Well, after commenting on everyone and their brothers blogs about my varied opinions, I thought it only appropriate I should post my thoughts on my own blog. Beware!! I am PASSIONATE (to a fault!) about this,so take it all with a grain of salt. (Or don't...)
First- Taylor. I understand his appeal, but personally, he just grates on my nerves. I don't think his voice was ANYTHING to write home about, especially when compared to talents like Katherine, Mandisa, Paris, etc. etc. I think Kat had BY FAR the best voice, but her camera schmoozing was more than I could stand. Just annoying! I will definately buy her music, though, not Taylor's. Dan and Angie, I'm totally with you on this one!!!
Now my take on the two finale shows. The two new songs were just regrettable. Too awful to believe an actual SONGWRITER attached his/her name to it. I really think it was a true injustice for Kat to have to sing that- it was definately the nail in her coffin! The results show last night was just inexcusable!!! AWFUL, HORRIBLE, I HATED IT! Ok, there, I said it, whew, I feel much better! The whole Clay Aiken schtick had me hiding under my blanket, I mean, REALLY uncomfortable. I truly can't believe he agreed to do it. And what was with Toni Braxton? She is one of my favorite voices, but last night was just plain weird. Was her mic not working? What was she singing? WAS she singing? She was using Taylor for her pole dance and his parents looked about to puke at the end of it. Truly embarassing. If she was trying to revive her career, she just lost my money.
The true highlights were Carrie U., Mary J., and Prince. Carrie was FLAWLESS. She has improved markably since last season; I just loved it! Mary J. has become one of my favorites since I heard some of her latest album- genius! And what can I say... Prince just blows me away! I was entertained from the moment he stepped on to the moment he stepped off. %2

A trip to Frederick Meijer Gardens

SO sorry for the lapse in posting! The week after Ava's birthday was just hard, so hence, no posting. The week after that our modem was on the fritz, alas, no new posts... And recently, well, what can I say... I'm just totally lazy. So, like I said, sorry!
This afternoon we took a trip to the local Botanical Gardens and Sculpture Park. Some good friends of ours from church were generous enough to buy our family a year's pass for our whole family. What a treat! We had a few hours to kill, so we grabbed the camera and some sweatshirts (MAN was it cold!), and off we went.
They have a pretty amazing children's garden that the kids get a real kick out of (and the adults too). The sculpture park is awe inspiring and it's always fun walking through the inside desert. Really, it was just like a mini vacation and a great time of bonding for our little family. Jason had WAY too much fun (see pictures..) I've also attached a pic of Elijah's two front teeth that are no more. He has this little lisp that just breaks my heart. What a doll.
I'll also mention a bit of news that sis-in-law Kelley was asking me to post. As of July 1st we will be going part time (66%- who comes up with these weird numbers??). So obviously, we will be needing more cash flow. What do do? We haven't found anything for the summer/fall/winter. Please pray we find something viable that won't be a detriment to our family time which is already time challenged. The good news is Jay has some pretty amazing opportunities for the long range. He had a meeting last week with the acquisitions director of Zondervan about writing a book. What you say? Yes, tis true. My little man is a closet genius. The whole thing is pretty crazy and we're not yet sure of all the details but no matter what, he has a pretty big foot in the door and some amazing ideas for the book. He has also been spending quite a bit of time with the Vermilya's (John and Darcy) up in Buckley (Bucktucky!) Michigan. This has lead to an opportunity to join Kingdom Buildings line-up of itinerant speakers. He will take quite a bit of time and training, but it looks like something that could be a dream come true for him. Continue to pray that we would know God's will and continue to seek Him for our decisions in all that lies ahead. We'll keep you posted (or at least I'll try....)Sculpture fountain.
Inside the gardens.
The log cabin.
Jay and Holly
Emmy inside the children's door.

A SERIOUSLY ornery husband....

Ava's 1st Birthday in Heaven

What to write on a day like today? I can say with all certainty that contrasts have never been sharper than they were tonight. A year ago we were all together at the hospital in Kalamazoo holding a sweet new baby girl. Today we were all together again, but without her. We decided to make her birthday as celebratory as possible; something the kids would always look forward to; a day to remember her life and the joy she brought even if for a short time. As hard as it was to put a smile on my face (I did my crying alone in the car), I think we did the right thing as each moment seemed special and symbolic.
The first thing we did was plant a magnolia tree in my parents front yard that was quickly dubbed "the Ava tree". It was so sweet to see the kids wanting so much to take part in planting her tree. In contrast, I had a quick flash of anger wondering why we were all standing around a tree and not a growing little girl...





We then took a 5 car caravan to the cemetery that was eerily similar to the one we took on Aug. 4th (the day of her memorial service). We all got out of the car and once again commented on how the wind was blowing. It seems that every time we visit her grave, there is a strong wind. I truly believe this is God showing his mercy to Shelly as she always says she feels closer to her when the wind is blowing. We each took a balloon and let them "fly up to Ava". It was just beautiful watching all those balloons rise higher and higher. But as Zeke waved bye-bye to his balloon I just kept feeling like I didn't want to say goodbye to her, even yet. In the pictures below you can also see some of the presents we left for her; a birthday balloon, some flowers from Cindy's garden, a pinwheel from Noah and Zoe...



It was getting pretty chilly with the wind blowing so hard, so we took the cake and ice cream back to my parents house. Shelly had made a sweet little pink cake and each kid took a turn blowing out her one candle. Once again, a sweet symbolic moment tinged with heartbreak that she couldn't blow it out herself. We also sang a rousing rendition of "Happy Birthday" with little Noah singing so loud the veins in his neck looked about ready to burst!
Then it was on to Chuck E. Cheese for dinner. Shelly wanted to do something that would be fun for the kids and she thought it was something Ava probably would've have really enjoyed. When we were walking in to get our hands stamped the worker said, "Anyone here for a birthday?" I just stood there and stammered. "Well, yeah, I mean, no; nevermind." Ugh... These are the moments I really hate. What should've been said, "Yes, we're here celebrating a birthday, but she's not here with us, she's celebrating in heaven...."???? Yeah, that would've gone over well..
All in all, it was as special a night as it possibly could've been. There were so many wonderful special moments....just being all together as a family the best of all. A couple of days ago Shelly and I and a girlfriend of ours sat around and talked about all the sweet things that were Ava Nicole. A sweet contented spirit, a hearty belly laugh already at 2 months, her mesmerizing effect on any and everyone.... These are the things that as time passes, I pray we NEVER forget...
Ps. 34:18 - "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."

Just a little quiz

How well do you know me??

For instance, did you know...

Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Green pepper farm worker
2. Busgirl at the Goalpost restaurant
3. Tuxedo salesperson
4. Jr. High/High School choir director

Four movies I could watch over and over:

1. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (love Kate Hudson)
2. Pearl Harbor (Ben Affleck and history rolled into one)
3. The Day After Tomorrow (satisfies my sick fascination with weather).
4. Sister Act 2. (Can anybody say Lauryn Hill?)

Four places I have lived:

1. Grand Rapids MI
2. Allendale, Mi
3. Marion IN
4. Kalamazoo, MI
Four TV shows I love to watch: (not that i havetime to watch them)

1. ALIAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. American Idol
3. House
4. Grey's Anatomy
Four books I would recommend:

1. The Bible
2. A Grace Disguised
3. Gone With the Wind
4. Anything James Patterson

Four places I have been on vacation:

1. London, England
2. Edinburgh, Scotland
3. Paris, France
4. Nassau, Bahamas

Four websites I visit daily:

1. Yahoo
2. My blog
3. The Weather Channel
4. Sometimes ebay

Four of my favorite foods: not in any particular order!

1. Starbucks Ice Cream
2. Alaskan King crab
3. Asparagus
4. Pizza!

Four places I would rather be right now:

1.Paris, France
2.San Diego, CA
3. Haworth, England
4. Mackinaw Island

Four things I dislike very much:

1. A mess
2. Being fake
3. Big bangs
4. Being too busy