Saturday, April 25, 2015

Sabbatical Day One- 2015

Sabbatical day one
It's 4:00 am. I've been up since three. My brain is not good at compartmentalizing. I worry. To a sinful degree, I worry. Which has caused insomnia...on a sabbatical. This first few hours has shown some light on quite possibly the thing God wants me to learn the most during these six weeks of rest and reflection. I have a need to be in control. Of Everything. When I am not, I worry and the impulse to be in control of these things I worry about is the worst form of pride. It's root grows deep. Into the very nature of unbelief, and a distrust of Gods will and plan. Pray that I can rest. Pray that I can trust. Pray that I can let go. For the ALMIGHTY is in control. He doesn't need me. He chooses to use me. Even when I think I'm in control, I'm not....
Matthew 6:25-27

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

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